My Voice.

In light of recent events, I think that it is important for people to understand my opinions on things, and the reason I think the way I do. The reason I want to share this is not to try and change anyone’s mind or to rub it in anyone’s face that Barack Obama won, but rather to express my opinion in a calm way that is not intended to spark fights or arguments, or make anyone upset. As a very outspoken person, I want to be able to express my views in a calm and mature manner so that people can understand why I may think differently than them.

First of all, the reason I so strongly supported Barack Obama is because he has the same views as I do on a lot of issues that are a big deal in society. I also think that this country needs a big change. From the way things have gone in the last 8 years, I think America deserves and is ready for a drastic change. And I will make it clear that I in no way think that Barack Obama is a God or anything. I just think that he cares about his country enough to want to make necessary changes. It is hard to deny that the last 8 years have brought our country down instead of lifting it up, and I personally believe that it is easier to get a country into a crisis than to get it out of one. So I know that Obama is going to have to work really hard to win over the minds of people who don’t support him, but I really think that if you give him a chance he will prove to a lot of people that he is not just talk. There is no way he can do that YET since he doesn’t take office for a couple of months, and the American people need to realize that changes don’t happen over night, so be patient and please give him a chance. I don’t think that making racist comments or joining groups on facebook called “the south will rise again” is helping this country move forward. Instead, it is reassuring me, and the rest of the country that we still have a lot of work to do. Making comments about him running our county into the ground, and suggesting that he may be assassinated is ignorant, offensive, uncalled for, disrespectful, and the most unpatriotic outlook I have ever seen. America’s motto is “United We Stand, Divided We Fall” and I think it is especially important to live by that motto right now when we so desperately need to stand together for change and unity.

I also want to touch on some different issues that are important to me.

On the issue of abortion and the reason I am pro-choice. First, I think it is a very common misconception that someone “supports abortion.” No one in this country thinks abortion is right. I in no way would ever tell someone to go ahead and get one, because I do think it is very controversial and wrong. At the same time, every situation is different and we don’t know enough about each individual person in order to pass a law outlawing someone’s choices. If abortion was completely outlawed, there would be illegal abortions all over the place and those are highly dangerous and life threatening. I personally think that if your morals tell you that you should not get an abortion than THAT is your choice, but I don’t think that the country should be able to choose what each individual person does. There are instances or rape and incest which happen on a daily basis that some people simply cannot help. I DO NOT think that abortion should be a means of birth control, because that is not its intended purpose. But I do however, think that if a 13 year old girl is raped, she should not have to be “punished with a baby” (which is what Barack Obama was TRYING to say). There are people who then would argue that some people get themselves into that situation which is sometimes true, sometimes people are stupid and get themselves into less than ideal situations where they are under the influence of drugs or alcohol and are taken advantage of. But like I said, I don’t think it should be used as a means of birth control. It is also a common misconception that a fetus can be aborted past a certain point. It is completely false. Abortion is portrayed as an infant that is fully formed in the uterus being taken out 8 months down the road, and that is NOT true. Abortion can only occur during a certain term of a woman’s pregnancy, when the fetus is not fully formed, and essentially is not a living being yet. I am all for putting a time limit on abortions and outlawing them past a certain time. There is also an argument that says that if you were “stupid enough to get yourself in that situation, you would KEEP the child.” Well, reminding you that sometimes you aren’t acting stupid and things STILL happen, that is your choice, but until it actually happens to you, I don’t think you can speak about it, because you don’t know what it is like, and you don’t know how you would act in that situation. It is probably very frightening and like I said, if someone is raped, I don’t think they should be forced to keep the child if it wasn’t their choice. Yes there are alternatives like adoption, but it isn’t easy to carry a child for 9 months and then give it away. Just like you would feel the guilt of aborting a fetus, you would feel the guilt of abandoning the child that you carried. I just really think it should be up to the individual, or couple to decide. We should force our morals on others. And one more thing, I think it is really important to teach children in school about safe sex, because if we really want to reduce the amount of abortions in this country, we need to start by reducing the number of unwanted pregnancies. Abstinence only as a sex education curriculum is a failure, and Sarah Palin’s daughter is proof of that. And I am not trying to attack her here.

On the issue of Gay Marriage, I am very appalled at the way this country treats gays and lesbians. I think that the hatred that is shown about race is shown towards these people, and it is completely wrong. I personally believe that people are born gay, and many people think that it is a choice. But in reality, who would CHOOSE a life where they are constantly ridiculed and looked down upon for who they love? It is about happiness. No one should have to hide who they love and care about, no matter if you are gay or straight. The biggest argument I have heard about this issue is the bible. I understand that the bible says that marriage is between a man and a woman. I understand that. But the bible says a lot of things that we don’t follow anymore. There were slaves in the bible, which we outlawed because we realized it was wrong. People were stoned to death in the bible which we don’t do anymore. And I also think that there should be a HUGE separation between church and state. America is a melting pot of cultures and religions and it is simply not fair for Christians to think that the bible is what Americans should live by. If that was the case then Americans would also be required to live by all the other religions that make up this great nation, like Judaism, Islam, Buddhism, Hinduism, and even Atheism. Gays and Lesbians are not ruining the sanctity of marriage. 50% of all marriages in America end in divorce and I think that THAT is what ruins the sanctity of marriage. Divorce goes against the bible. When laws like Prop 8 in California pass, outlawing their right to civil union, it portrays the intolerance of human beings, and shows hatred towards others. I think it is wrong for people to judge others based on sexuality, and if you really wanted to bring God into this argument, I think that Jesus would be appalled at how judgmental people are towards others. THAT is something the bible says to not do, so we should try to focus on not judging others and letting people be happy with the decisions they choose for their life. Focus on your own.

On the issue of Stem Cell Research, I think there is a HUGE misconception with the way it is looked at. I recently had a discussion with someone who asked me if why I agreed with it if it was an aborted fertilized egg. People literally think that fertilized eggs are taken out of the body for science. Granted, I don’t know much about this area and I will admit that, but I do know that the research that is being done on stem cells is only beneficial to human beings. We are finding cures for cancer, aids, diabetes, failed organs, and the list goes on. I don’t think that people are trying to play god and make people live longer. I think that they are trying to make people’s lives who are struggling to survive less painful, and yes, prolong them. Maybe that IS what God intended for us to do with science. We don’t know, and frankly we can’t say, which is why religion and science need to be separated also.

On the issue of the war in Iraq/ the economy, it is a very touchy subject that I don’t wish to get into very much, but I will say that I don’t support the war for the sole reason that the man who took us there had an alternate agenda and we did not fulfill anything we should have done. We were attacked by Osama Bin Laden, and for all we know he is still out there hiding in a cave. Instead we went in and when we couldn’t find him, we brought someone else back who hasn’t done anything to us in years and made that the focus of the media to stray us from reality. I do think that Saddam Hussein had to be taken out of power, yes, but that wasn’t the reason we went to war, was it? And the war also turned into a war on oil. Gas prices have been through the roof, so much that people like me cannot even afford to put a full tank in at one time. Lately they have dropped, and it is obvious that this always happens before an election and then it goes right back up. A big point is that maybe if we drilled on our own turf we wouldn’t be dependant on other countries, which is very true. But at some point in time, the world’s resources are going to run out, and if we run out of our own oil, we will be paying out of the ass for foreign oil. Instead I think it is wiser to save what we have until other countries end up being dependant on us. That will be a boost in our economy, and I personally think it would be better for us in the long run. But that has taken me away from the point. I have a friend that just got back from Iraq, and I tried my hardest to convince him not to go in the first place, but he did. He fought for this country and made it out alive and I am so thankful for that. He even told me that he cannot wait to be done with this chapter in his life because it was so horrible and as much as he does not regret his decision to join the service, he is happy as ever to be done with it. I don’t want to know more people leaving because that means more people dying. I don’t want our brave men to be fighting and dying for something that a lot of us don’t even understand. (And that does not mean I am unpatriotic, or that I don’t support our troops. I think I support them so much that I want them to come home ALIVE. And I think that people who take such a strong stance on them being there fighting, should join up.) It also isn’t helping our economic crisis. Sending billions of dollars a week to the military comes from our taxes. And we are resorting to borrowing money from China, which is going to put us even further in debt. I personally know several people who are unemployed and it IS NOT because they aren’t hard workers. It IS NOT because they can’t hold a job. It IS NOT because they aren’t looking hard enough for jobs. It is because of the economy and the wasteful spending we are doing in Iraq. Companies are having to lay of entire branches just to stay in business, and no one is hiring right now because they have to let people go instead. It’s a vicious cycle. It is going to take a long time to get us out of this crisis but I know we can do it, its just going to take some drastic changes, which I’ve already talked about Obama wanting to do. (And I’m pretty sure God doesn’t want his people fighting wars and killing each other.)

On the issue of Global Warming, I don’t want to come off too harsh but I think people who “don’t believe in it” are lying to themselves. Take a look around when you’re driving. Semi’s release black smoke into the atmosphere every 5 seconds, cars release exhaust and drip oil, the skies are brown in California and other big cities because of all the pollution in the air. It is causing a rapid change in our weather and if you still don’t believe me, then why is it still 70 degrees in the beginning of NOVEMBER? It usually is snowing and bitterly cold right now, but instead we are barely into fall. And last winter was prolonged into the end of May when it should have been warm and pleasant outside. I don’t think it is that hard to take small steps, and just do little things like recycle, don’t throw your gum into bushes, don’t pick up smoking, and don’t leave lights on when you aren’t in the room. It’s really not that hard.

And for the record, you don’t have to be a republican to be a Christian. I think what makes you a Christian is your willingness to accept others for who they are and the choices they make and realize that God intended for his children, that he created perfectly, to stand by each other no matter what the circumstances may be.

I have been labeled as a hippie and have been called “liberal” like it is a cuss word, but I will stand by my beliefs because I am proud of my tolerance for people, I am proud that I care about the environment, I am proud that I realize that people’s rights in this country should not be violated because others don’t agree, I am proud that I have morals, I am proud that I am open minded, and I am proud to be an American (not just because my candidate won, but because of the changes I have already seen this country make with this election alone, and the fact that Americans are coming together and calling for change). If those things make me a dirty rotten hippy tree hugger, then I am proud to be that too. I think John McCain put up a strong fight, and although I did question a lot of his actions, I respect him for the classy way in which he spoke on election night.

Sarah Palin: the ultimate bridge to nowhere

The vice presidential debate on thursday night went exactly as expected: Sarah Palin could not answer a single question so instead talked about whatever she felt like whenever she wanted, and then went back to energy when she couldnt think of anything else. This is the person half of Americans want to be our vice president. POTENTIALLY she could be THE president. it is no joke, john mccain is OLD and UNHEALTHY so essentially, we ARE voting for the vice president if we vote for her. I am tired of being called “unpatriotic” for my beliefs. i am tired of being called uninformed about politics because i have different opinions than other people. if you want to know what unpatriotic is, look at Sarah Palin. she cant even name one supreme court case let alone ONE magazine she reads. She cannot answer questions on the spot, cannot pronounce the names of leaders of other countries and is COMPLETLY unprofessional when speaking in front of a crowd. so how am i more unpatriotic than her? and more uninformed than her? wheres the logic?

here are some things i would like to point out (mostly from the VP debate but some from other instances)

1. during the VP debate she winked at the camera 5 times. (very unprofessional)
2. She referred to Joe Biden as “Joe Six Pack”
3. She denies that global warming is caused by man. (joe biden then turned around and said “if you dont know the cause, it is impossible to change!”)
4. she corrected Biden on the drill chant, claiming PROUDLY that people chant “drill, baby, drill”
5. she referred to John Mccain as a “Maverick” 9 times (and joe biden very intelligently corrected her by pointing out all the reasons he is NOT a maverick)
6. She used expressions like “you betcha!” and “dog gone it!”
7. she gave a shout out to a 3rd grade class like this was an acceptance speech for an award.
8. she claimed that the VP should have more power and claimed that the constitution calls for it. (i dont know what world she lives in, but she obviously hasnt read the constitution.)
9. she clearly did not know what an acheilles heel is, because when asked what her weakness is, she rambled on about democracy, what she’s done as a governor, Alaska being an energy independant state, and her and John Mccain being a team.
10. in defence of her recent interview with Katie Couric, she claimed she was “annoyed” because she didnt get to talk about what she wanted to talk about, and since she was put on the spot didnt know what to say. (all in defense of her lame interview which made her look absolutley ridiculous and uninformed)
11. she CANNOT say NUCLEAR, just like GEORGE W. BUSH! (do they think it is spelled nucular?)
12. she claimed John Mccain knows what “evil” is because he has faught in a war. (and no one who hasnt faught in a war knows what evil is…)
13. she said that one thing she was glad to have in common with Joe Biden was that they “both love Israel”
14. she did not want the format to be a debate format, but then tried to debate the whole time, going back and forth and attempting to argue with Joe Biden.
15. she absolutley did not give her plan for Iraq. Avoided that question like all the others. (joe Biden pointed out immediatley that he STILL did not know what her plan was after she was done rambling)
16. she attempted to repeat a quote from a former president in her closing statement, but completly butchered it. (If you’re going to quote a former president, you MIGHT want to get it right.)
17. when asked what her plan to get out of our oil crisis, she said “we’re gonna take on the oil companies and tell em’ no!” (enough said)
18. at one point she called Joe Biden “Obiden”
19. (my favorite) when she first walked onto the stage and shook Joe’s hand, her microphone was on and she actually said “Your name is Joe right?” (didnt even know his name….?)
20. she outright admitted that she has only been at this for 5 weeks. (I dont think ANYONE can claim that Obama is inexperienced, when compared to Sarah Palin.)
21. In a recent speech, she made a statement about watching Joe Biden’s speeches since she was in the second grade, claiming that he is old. Does she know who she is running with? a 76 year old man? John Mccain? HELLO???
22. she claims she is a feminist, but doesnt stand for anything that even remotely suggests she is for womens rights (see her stance on abortion)

So there you have it, folks. need more? i could go on and on and on. she has NO experience, cannot answer questions or give specifics about ANYTHING, is a MAJOR hypocrite, and claims that she is “annoyed” when people point out her stupidity. is there even a question people? do you really want this person to run this country when she cant even name a supreme court case? people have argued with me that i am “stupid” because we arent voting for the vice president, we are voting for the PRESIDENT, which is true if you vote for obama, but if you vote for John Mccain (who will probably die in office), essentially you ARE voting for her. it blows my mind that people love her more and more every day. do they watch the news, read articles, or do ANY kind of research? looks to me like a no.

Scared? i am.

really people?

it amazes me that after last night’s debates people still think John Mccain came out on top. i sat there through the whole thing, trying my best to have an unbaised opinion. i have to write a report for a class so i really tried to give each person a fair chance and not let my views get in the way. i watched the entire thing, and here are some things i noticed:

John Mccain would not make eye contact with Barack Obama. After the moderator asked them both to speak to eachother, Obama addressed him directly, looked at him while he was speaking and made notice that they were even in the same room. John Mccain on the other hand, looked at the moderator, the camera and every where else besides at his opponent.

John mccain liked to interrupt and have the last word. after the moderator said several times that they needed to move on, Mccain insisted that he needed to speak because he didnt get everything out during his chance.

John mccain liked to tell stories. He alluded to so many different stories, i had no idea what he was talking about. he compared the issues now to the ways other politicians in history dealt with them instead of presenting his own ideas and policies, and to me that says weakness. he had no background information of his own to present so he continues to tell stories. the whole night.

Now some specific instances that i wrote down during the debate:

John mccain said something like “You dont say that outloud! you think it, and you do what you have to do, but you dont say it out loud.” implying that it is ok to lie to the american people and not “say it out loud.”

John mccain does not want a universal health care plan. he said that he thinks decisions should not be up to the government, but should be between the patient and the doctor. yet, when it comes to abortion, it should not be between patient and doctor, it should be up to the government to tell them NO. hypocritic?

i immediatley followed up with the debates through online polls last night. mind you, i know that polls dont mean everything and they definetly are not a predictor, but it is nice to see where people who actually vote in online polls stand when it comes to something like the debates:

NBC showed 52% voted that Obama won the debate, while 34% said Mccain won.
CNN showed 67% voted that Obama won, while 27% said Mccain.
MSNBC showed 79% Obama, and 16% Mccain. (left out percentages on both were undecided voters)
FOX news did not have an online poll, but looking at the articles on their site, even the most republican news station out there had articles posted saying that Obama was in the lead.

yet there are still people out there saying that John Mccain came out on top. There are people out there who refuse to accept the fact that maybe, just maybe Barack Obama is more well-spoken than John Mccain, and that he is more fluent and precise. And maybe, just maybe, he could very well be the next president of the United States.

another opinionated post. dont read if you’re offended.

i read this in an email from my mother that originally was sent from my cousin. it was an essay written by Eve Ensler who’s name you probably dont recognize right away. she is a feminist, and womans rights activist and is more commonly known for her book “The Vagina Monologues.” Her view on Sarah Palin, as an ACTIVE womens rights advocate is greatly valued in my opinion. i look up to the people who stand up for womens rights because they truley fight for equality, and for those of us who are still treated today as if we are beneath men. Let me preface this by saying that no matter what you wish to believe about Sarah Palin, she is not now, never has been or ever will be for women’s rights. here is the quote from Ensler’s essay that i liked.

“But everything Sarah Palin believes in and practices is antithetical to Feminism which for me is part of one story — connected to saving the earth, ending racism, empowering women, giving young girls options, opening our minds, deepening tolerance, and ending violence and war.”

How can someone say they stand up for anything concerning women’s rights when they dont believe in allowing women to choose what they can and cannot do with their bodies? not even in the case of a poor helpless girl getting raped or even worse, raped by her own kin. how can she say she cares about women when she clearly does not care about the circumstances of having a child agianst their will? how can she say she cares about women at all? here is another quote from the essay.

“If the Polar Bears don’t move you to go and do everything in your power to get Obama elected then consider the chant that filled the hall after Palin spoke at the RNC, ‘Drill Drill Drill.’ I think of teeth when I think of drills. I think of rape. I think of destruction. I think of domination. I think of military exercises that force mindless repetition, emptying the brain of analysis, doubt, ambiguity or dissent. I think of pain.”

How sick is it to know that the republican party is chanting DRILL DRILL DRILL at the RNC. It makes me sick to my stomach. i have nothing else to say about it except for that it physically makes me SICK. i am DISGUSTED with the way some americans believe this is acceptable. here is another.

“Sarah believes in guns. She has her own custom Austrian hunting rifle. She has been known to kill 40 caribou at a clip. She has shot hundreds of wolves from the air. Sarah believes in God. That is of course her right, her private right. But when God and Guns come together in the public sector, when war is declared in God’s name, when the rights of women are denied in his name, that is the end of separation of church and state and the undoing of everything America has ever tried to be.”

we all say we believe in god. how is believing in god going to change anything politically? people do not understand the separation of church and state and want people like Palin to be allowed to force creationism in schools on people. even the people in these United States who dont believe in god. even the people who have a different religion that Christianity. It is simply unethical to force this kind of thing on them. however you may argue the same for evolution, except for the fact that evolution is a proven scientific fact, proven through careful research. see darwin. And the fact that she can call herself a “Christian” and yet want to use guns freely as a sport killing animals.

She would rather waste our precious dollars on destroying the earth by drilling and killing those in war than use it for healthcare and education. how is that Christian? and how is that morally right? (mind you this is my opinion.) She could very well become the next president of the United states and we cant deny John Mccain’s age. he is not exactly a healthy young man. he has had numerous encounters with skin cancer and he is in his 70’s. She could very well be taking over and the thought of her running our country scares me half to death. this isnt about a woman running the country. this is about the PERSON. and frankly, if her way of “thinking” is enforced on this country, we will all be damned to hell. one last quote.

“Sarah Palin does not much believe in thinking. From what I gather she has tried to ban books from the library, has a tendency to dispense with people who think independently. She cannot tolerate an environment of ambiguity and difference. This is a woman who could and might very well be the next president of the United States. She would govern one of the most diverse populations on the earth.”

banning books? banning great literature because it goes against what SHE believes in? what about the rest of us who want to read them? she doesnt CARE about the rest of us. and as we can see, the people who disagree with her, like her brother in law, she simply has fired from their jobs so she does not have to make contact with them. does anyone see a pattern?

If you want to read the rest of her essay i can send it, post it, or im sure it is floating around online somwhere.

i ask PLEASE, no negative comments. this is my personal opinion and i wish for it to be respected. i am part of a minority political group, and i have been attacked numerous times for my beliefs. i will never be able to change anyone’s closed mind, but i can and will use my right of the constitution to voice my opinion. i just ask that you don’t argue with it on my blog.

ghosts.

ive been watching alot of sex and the city lately. it seems like thats the only cure for a bad day, and well, ive had quite a few bad days in the last week. but thats beside the point. the main character of sex and the city is a writer for the New York Star and in the show she sort of writes her columns out loud. some of them really get me thinking and sometimes i wanna write about the same thing. so heres one i found interesting.

do relationships ever really go away or are we forever haunted by relationships past?

i dont know the answer. all i know is that so far in my life, i have not been able to escape from one single meaningful relationship in my life. yes past relationships have gone away and i have forgotten them but all the meaningful ones, friendships included have never really left me. even my first boyfriend in highschool and i still talk all the time. it gets me thinking about how people actually drop the people that once meant so much to them. how do we turn our feelings around and feel something different than before? how to feelings change and why dont people love forever? it makes me sad thinking about this because i know that no matter how hard i try to maintain a relationship with someone, anyone, if it fails i will never be able to fully let go of that person. i am still holding onto friendships that have long since past. i am still holding onto relationships that are long since past. i cannot let go of the things that i felt once because for me, those feelings dont go away.

i have learned that not everyone feels the same way as i do. but i have invested alot of time making friendships and putting effort into relationships that it seems like such a waste to just pretend like i dont feel that way anymore, and i dont want to hide my feelings. i love these people and they should know it. once you have gained my love, it doesnt go away that easily.

so i guess the real question here is, can we ever fully let go of the things we love and care about in life? or will the past forever haunt us and prevent us from moving forward?

once you pop out, its every man for himself.

I find it so hard to believe that people really care so much for unborn babies but dont even relaize that they dont give a shit about people who are already alive.

we are sending thousands of soldiers over to iraq only to be killed. how is that different? once your born no one gives a shit. they only care about you when your UNborn.

also, what about the starving and homeless people in our country? no one cares about them because we are too busy caring for those who are UNborn.

if people stood outside and help huge posters about helping people who are dying to make ends meet, people who are starving, people who dont have enough money to have good healthcare insurance so they have to sell their own home in order to fight breast cancer, then i might feel a little less bitter about people who fight against abortion. but the cold hard truth is, once you pop out its every man for his fucking self.

now, i am so sorry if you feel that i am not christian because i care about poor people and people going over to war and people who are starving and dying of medical issues. i am sorry that caring about those things isnt christian. i am sorry that because i am for a woman choosing what to do with her own body that it makes me unchristian. i am sorry that not wanting the government to tell me what i can and cannot do with my uteris makes me un christian. i am sorry that i know how to keep myself from getting pregnant but that the thousands of girls who dont know how or physically cannot because of rape or insest arent getting a voice because the government says they cant choose what to do with themselves. but your right, because i care about other people, who are living, who i know, that makes me unchristian.

i feel like people are so hypocritical of this issue because they dont give a shit about you once your born but the second you pop out, its goodye help and hello to a life where they could potentially be dying anyways due to war or illness that they cant afford to take care of. lets take care of the living first, help them finish their lives without suffering, and THEN worry about a fetus that has no brain or heartbeat yet. and dont argue that they do because by the time they develope that it is too late to have an abortion according to medical laws.

THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS AMERICA.

ps. if anyone reading this has anything bad to say against me, like the 2 people whos comments i just deleted, DO NOT WRITE ME. i am tired of hearing from you ignorant people. i repeat DO NOT COMMENT ON THESE IF YOU DONT LIKE THEM. its my own opinions and i dont directly attack you for yours.

any vagina will do.

let me start by saying, what an insult to american women. does this whole “im gonna pick a woman to be my vp” really fool anyone? yes there are people out there, women i might add, who wanted to see a woman, HILIARY CLINTON, in office and are bitter that she did not get the nomination. but john mccain thinks that by picking any old woman to be his vp that all the hiliary supporters will vote for him just because of that. but what an insult. picking the most right wing republican woman he could find, who stands for the exact opposite of everything hiliary stands for and has contributed to womens rights is an insult. what he doesnt realize is that he has just pissed off alot of people because of his little brain thinking that any vagina will do. anyone who supported hiliary is no doubt going too vote for me now because i have a woman running with me! i for one am highly insulted by this.

john mccain does not have a brain in his thick skull and if i hear one more word about how amazing palin is i am going to go insane. i also love the hipocracy that comes with all the religous right people who told me 4 years ago that a woman could never run this country. that a woman could never do what a man does. (girls telling me this, mind you.) and now all of the sudden are huge supporters of this woman who will most likely be running this country since mccain is so old he will probably die in office.

there are so many good republican women out there who stand for womens rights and who have alot of the same views as hiliary clinton did. but instead he chose the youngest, hottest, most direct opposite woman of the person that half of americans wanted to see in office. does anyone see the hole he has just dug himself? people are pissed. and i like how people are trying to turn it around as a good thing and say how happy people are with his choice. might i remind everyone that he met her one time before he announced her as his VP.

it makes me sick when she insults Barack Obama saying things like “he has no foreign policy experience” when she in fact, was a governor for a year and a half, ALSO has no foreign policy experience, repeatedly insults his want for change in our economy accusing him of raising taxes and denying global warming and calling it a “myth.”

lets touch on her other issues that people are directly insulting me for such as teaching creationism in schools. asking me “dont you believe in god?” heres my answer:
creationism is a belief based on the bible, evolution is a scientific FACT proven through careful scientific observation. one belongs in a science class, and one belongs in a theology class. im not against them teaching creationism in schools, just not in science classes because its not science. of course i believe in god, and dont question that again. i dont expect to be taught religion in a science class anymore than i would want to learn science in a religion class. and just like i think they should be able to teach both, why cant i believe in both?

now how about her strict anti abortion policy, but her inability to teach her own daughter abstinence. how about how abstinence is the only way and how it worked so well for her 17 year old daughter who is pregnant with an 18 year olds child. how about that being 17, her mother is still in charge of her and it is illegal for her to get married at the age of 17.  now the argument is that she cannot control what her daughter did because she did the best she possibly could as a mother and her daughter chose not to listen. heres my anwer:
sarah palin wants everyone to educate their children the same way that is, abstinence as the only form of birth control. her firm position on sex education is ABSTINENCE ONLY. if she has her way, schools wont teach contraception, safe sex, or any other medically proven methods of preventing unwanted pregnancy and STD’s. thats a policy issue not a parenting issue. so if you really want to reduce the number of abortions in america, start by reducing the number of unwanted pregnancies. i mean, imagine if her way of teaching her daughter was the norm in public schools around america, abstinence only as a sex education curriculum is a failure and hher daughter is proof of that. thats the real issue here, not what her daughter did.

thank you america. if you vote this man and woman into office you can bet your ass she’ll be pushing him around in a wheelchair. if you vote them into office, we will keep going downhill, make no progress in this country and have another pair of hypocritic idiots running this country.

Obama. My hero.

If you dont like Obama, democrats that speak their mind, or me talking about politics, dont comment on this post. dont say anything to me about it. You can read but if you dont have anything nice to say then just dont.

I have done my research. i have registered to vote. i have watched numerous speeches and debates, commercial advertisements for both parties, and i have had discussions and arguments where i have both listened and spoken my mind about these issues. tonight when Barack Obama took the podium to make his speech at the Democratic National Convention, i cried my eyes out. It amazes me how much this country is in need of him right now. people say hes too good to be true and make ridiculous comments towards him in offence like “if Obama wins would it still be called the white house?” you people have got to be kidding me. He made a huge point by saying that just because John Mccain says he cares about America, doesnt mean he cares about it any more than anyone else. Just because Mccain has served this country does not make him any more eligable to be president. WE ALL care about this country, and anyone who accuses him or anyone else of anything less than that knows nothing about what it means to be patriotic. The most american thing we can do for our country is to have a leader who wants to work FOR us not against us. for the last 8 years George W. Bush has had a different agenda than helping us. he has worked for himself, trying to continue his fathers work, letting the economy sink into termoil, and forgetting all about what we as a country stand for. Tonight, Barack Obama said “We love our country too much to let the next 4 years look like the last 8.” and he is so right. Mccain is George Bush the third and will do nothing to help or change the sinking america we live in. He spoke with the power of a leader, the strength of a soldier, and the wisdom of a man who knows exactly what he wants to see happen with the country that WE ALL care about more than anything.

I want this change more than anything. I want to know that i am ingood hands, that my family no longer has to suffer from the effects of the sinking economy, that i am able to have an education at the University of Kansas that WONT put my parents through bankrupsey. I need to know that no matter what, my family and i will be protected and will not have to sell our house and resort to government help because frankly, the government has done nothing to help us so far. I need to know that more jobs are being created so that when i graduate from college i wont have to fear not being able to work, and not being able to support myself, start a family or get married. I want so badly to be able to give my children the things they need and bring them into a world where i am able to support them and where i am well off enough to send them to a good school so that they too can fulfill their own dreams and goals.

I have been attacked so many times, been called unpatriotic, and been called “unchristian” for my beliefs in politics. But i dont care. I believe that this country has been taking the steepest downhill slope for the last 8 years and nothing can be done to help that unless we make a change. like Obama also said, how can we keep making the same decisions and expect different results? we cant.

Do the research. Listen to what he has to say. Think about what you want in your life, and what you DESERVE. think about how many of us our suffering from the economy and how many of our loved ones are dying over seas for something that has not solved any of our countrys problems but made them worse. think people. THINK. His race doesnt matter, we should be past that by now. we should be moving on to the REAL issues at hand like the war and the economy. Get over the fact that he is not the typical man we elect to run this country, get over it. We need this now more than ever.

I have never felt so inspired by a politician before. If i was in Colorado i would be campagning for him like there is no tomorrow! but since i cant, from now on i will sport the Obama Pin and the “Barack Chalk Jayhawk” sign ever single day until he is elected. YES WE CAN!

trust.

where does trust come in in a relationship? is it when you start being friends or lovers? is it the first time you meet someone, or after a few dates? or is it after years of friendship? how can we ever know if we can fully trust someone in our lives? we may think we know someone and call them our “best friend” and one day they start hiding things and going behind your back because they think being honest and telling you whats going on will make you mad.
in the long run, what makes you more mad…someone not telling you and you finding out through someone else something huge an serious about your best friends life, or telling you the truth up front.
ill tell you my take, i would rather be told because at least then it would be out in the open and i would have to learn to accept it. but instead, people get this crazy idea in their heads that in order to not hurt someone, they just wont tell them. which constitutes as lying in my book.
after seven years of friendship you would think that trust wouldnt even be an issue by now. but instead its just beginning. i am learning that it doesnt matter how many years you have known someone, how long you loved them, or how much you both invest in the relationship. at one point or another people begin to challenge your trust and make you re-think just how much you actually can have faith in that person.
it doesnt matter that they’re sorry and say the’ll never do it again, cause they lied once, or several times for that matter, and how do i know they wont do it again? cause they gave me their word? well their word is kind of shot to hell now dont you think?
how am i supposed to trust someone who hides things from me because they “dont want to hurt my feelings”? how am i supposed to pick up where we left off and start telling them everything again, and why should i?
trust is huge for me. i have had alot of reasons on the past to not trust people, but for some reason it has never stopped me from having faith in the human race and trusting everyone. but lately this doesnt even seem lagit to me. why havent i been scarred by the past incidences of mistrust? i think this one has scarred me.
i am one of the most trustworthy people i know of. i dont tell secrets, if you ask me a question ill be honest to the best of my ability, and i have alot of people who confide in me. if i were to break that one day and hurt someone who gave me their trust, i would be heartbroken. i pride myself in my ability to gain peoples trust and i would never abuse that, especially on someone i care about this much.
i want to trust people, but now i question why i ever did. no one cares about anyone but themseleves.

did i do the right thing?

so today the swim team got all their brand new equipment, and living with 2 swimmers, of course i got to see what they handed out this year. for some reason all the stuff this year just seems so much cooler than last year. the backpacks are bigger, the planner is flashier, the sports bras are multi-colored and they got 4 pairs of shorts instead of 3. it made me sad and jealous to see all their new stuff. i wanted it. i know it just seemed so much cooler because i cant have it anymore. i know that that was one of the perks that came with being an athlete. i love my schedule this semester. LOVE IT. and i know that from now on its not going to be my first pick. so all of these things are leaving me with this feeling of insecurity about retiring from diving. i need to keep reminding myself of how i felt a couple days ago when i was thinking about how the perks did not outweigh the misery. i have been nothing but happy since i came back to school as much as i was dreading it. and i know that after class when i get to come home and relax, that it was worth it to me. the materialistic stuff is cool, yes. but having that stuff doesnt make me happy with diving and it never will.

i guess ive been talking about this for a while now, but its a huge life changing decision for me. ive never experienced this carefree lifestyle where my biggest concern is making sure i get my homework done and study for tests. and i like having less stress. although, tonight i discovered a crack in the bottom of baby’s bowl. that stressed me out for a while. now i have to go buy a new one tomorrow. blah. but anyways, the point is, for the time being i need to stop being jealous of the free stuff because thats the decision i made. and i need to stand by it.